[ Sometimes, these hardworking or serious types need a tiny reminder to stop for the day. That's enough for Ayer to do, and it's all up to Louis to listen or not. He'll be at ease as long as he's done at least that for him, since he has no idea of the other's plans and activities. ]
[And he doesn't want to waste any of it, right now. These first few days feel the most crucial to setting the foundation for the rest of his life here, however long it may come to be. Once he's over this initial hill, then and only then will he maybe find he can truly "take it easy." He appreciates Ayer's concern nonetheless.]
You shouldn't stay up too late, either. You'll be taking the lead tomorrow, after all.
[ "I just wanted to know if you're okay." That goes unsaid, as Ayer experienced this scenario multiple times from others too. Overly compassionate and dedicated people like Louis always do their best not to cause worry, so they would often lie even if they're not actually okay. This is why Ayer feels limited in what he can do…
All he can really say is this much. ]
It's never easy when you're restless.
I still remember how I felt when I first came here.
That day, I ended up getting too overwhelmed, I nearly passed out.
[Ah... Passing out. Louis was more mindful of that in his student days—or better said, his human days. He may have been zealous more often than not, but even the sister he strove to catch up to would warn him to maintain his health, and that he'd have no right to preach unto others when he couldn't set the example himself.
It's not that he'd forgotten those words, but... perhaps he's taken advantage of a revenant's tirelessness a little too much over the years. Hearing Ayer's own story is a sorry reminder of that.]
I'm sorry. That couldn't have been a pleasant experience.
Restless might be just the tip of the iceberg, really... but don't worry. I won't be pushing myself to a point of collapse.
[ The Grandcypher crew members who were present at the time, they eventually found Ayer before it became too much to handle. He was able to rest in a safe place with them by his side and he'll always be grateful to them. This is why he is so determined to do things right. He refuses to be the only one protected. Louis also protected him before…
Ayer wants to believe the revenant wouldn't forget their earlier conversation, so he won't repeat himself. Even if Louis possibly forgets again, Ayer doesn't need him to remember anyway. He'll be here… He'll always be here. Louis is also not alone. ]
[How long has it been since he's received a good night text (not to mention texted at all)? It's... warmer than he remembered. Or perhaps it's the long drought of such that's made it so. It's seemingly such an insignificant thing, but he can't help the way his expression softens looking at the screen.
Ayer's shown his concern for Louis again and again, and even in this. The least he could do is bear that in mind as he works tonight... He'll try not to overdo it, knowing that someone is watching over him. He has to value himself, not only for the sake of the friends he'll make here—but also of those in his faraway home.]
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Date: 2020-07-22 07:17 am (UTC)I know.
But you have time now, don't you?
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Date: 2020-07-22 08:00 am (UTC)[And he doesn't want to waste any of it, right now. These first few days feel the most crucial to setting the foundation for the rest of his life here, however long it may come to be. Once he's over this initial hill, then and only then will he maybe find he can truly "take it easy." He appreciates Ayer's concern nonetheless.]
You shouldn't stay up too late, either. You'll be taking the lead tomorrow, after all.
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Date: 2020-07-22 05:13 pm (UTC)[ "I just wanted to know if you're okay." That goes unsaid, as Ayer experienced this scenario multiple times from others too. Overly compassionate and dedicated people like Louis always do their best not to cause worry, so they would often lie even if they're not actually okay. This is why Ayer feels limited in what he can do…
All he can really say is this much. ]
It's never easy when you're restless.
I still remember how I felt when I first came here.
That day, I ended up getting too overwhelmed, I nearly passed out.
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Date: 2020-07-22 05:58 pm (UTC)It's not that he'd forgotten those words, but... perhaps he's taken advantage of a revenant's tirelessness a little too much over the years. Hearing Ayer's own story is a sorry reminder of that.]
I'm sorry. That couldn't have been a pleasant experience.
Restless might be just the tip of the iceberg, really... but don't worry. I won't be pushing myself to a point of collapse.
[He physically, literally cannot, but. Details.]
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Date: 2020-07-22 07:14 pm (UTC)I wasn't alone.
[ The Grandcypher crew members who were present at the time, they eventually found Ayer before it became too much to handle. He was able to rest in a safe place with them by his side and he'll always be grateful to them. This is why he is so determined to do things right. He refuses to be the only one protected. Louis also protected him before…
Ayer wants to believe the revenant wouldn't forget their earlier conversation, so he won't repeat himself. Even if Louis possibly forgets again, Ayer doesn't need him to remember anyway. He'll be here… He'll always be here. Louis is also not alone. ]
Good night.
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Date: 2020-07-22 09:02 pm (UTC)Ayer's shown his concern for Louis again and again, and even in this. The least he could do is bear that in mind as he works tonight... He'll try not to overdo it, knowing that someone is watching over him. He has to value himself, not only for the sake of the friends he'll make here—but also of those in his faraway home.]
Sweet dreams.
I'll see you tomorrow.